Yeay! The coast is clear. The sky has cleared. And I'm back to my usual self. My usual bubbly 'cute' self. Oops, I meant HAPPY. I can laugh as loud as I want now that its all over. But what can I say, it has been a terrible month for me. Hmmph..not a month but a month and a half ever since the split. It has been a sad and emotional departure for both of us, I guess. Or maybe he thought it would be better off with her but I guessed it turned out sour as well.(I noticed it in FB. Ever since that Comment by him that day, she has never commented on any of his findings after that)..Thank you GOD for what you have done and for what you have given me, my FRIENDS.
Let me list down the names of those who really helped me through this period of time :
i) Ida Rodz - for the calls and text messages late at night despite her being so busy with shifting homes.
ii) Kak Far - for bbm-ing me and asking how I was without getting bored.
iii) Diane - for bbm-ing and ym-ing me every morning, except weekends and for accompanying me during lunch everyday.
iv) Nad - for accompanying me on road trips and getting lost in putrajaya.
But guys, I'm fine and I'm BACK.
And I'm a new person now. I'm a brand new woman now ready to move on with my life. In fact I have. I have fallen deeply in love with someone and I wish to spend my lifetime with him. Like I said, I wanna grow old with him and die lying in his arms. I want to wake up beside him everyday, look into his eyes, give him a simple kiss on his lips and tell him how much I love him. I just want to live a simple life with him, the only man I will ever love forever, besides my father of course. I feel so lucky. I feel so blessed. I feel that GOD has answered my prayers and has guided me with his grace into finding such a wonderful man. Words cannot describe how I really feel towards him but time will tell and my marriage to him will show how happy I really am. And oh, did I mention I have a daugher. Her name's Chary and she's 6 and I am really excited to be her 'mommy'. Seriously...its so fun to have a daughter, whom I can pamper with dresses and dolls. Well basically, he calls himself my Husband, so naturally I am his Wife, right? Hehehehe...and he says he has a surprise for me when he comes down to KL and that I must not say NO to it. I think I can guess whats in store for me. I think he's gonna PROPOSE...OMG!!
Naturally, I will not say NO to this man. He knows that. But let's just JUAL MAHAL a bit here and say MAYBE. Hahahaha...Nah! If he actually proposes, I'll just say YES and move on with it. Leave everything behind and start my life all over again in Cleveland. Its wonderful, come to think of it. Not everyone gets a chance to rebuild their life in a new country, ya know. Sometimes when I sit back to think, I cant believe that everything is moving so fast now. If I was still with my Ex (you guys know who..), I think I wouldnt be where I am today. I would still be in DATING status or IN A RELATIONSHIP status (as in FB) instead of MARRIED. And I wouldnt get the chance to migrate to another country (coz he thinks that Msia is so cool..). And yeah, I wouldnt have a daughter yet (coz he's just not ready for one). Geez..life is short. You should learn to accept responsibilities and move on man,A! You dont ask someone out or tell them you're here by SMS or BBM!! And especially when that person is your GF! Can you imagine that he BBMs me when he's outside my door and sometimes when I'm in the shower, he'll wait like an ASS for 30 minutes. How dumb is this!! If he calls, I would have heard the phone ring, wouldnt I?
And he only SMSes or BBM when he has something to say. When he's occupied with his stuff, you're just as good as dead to him. Now looking back, how foolish was I back then? He's nothing compared to Brown C.B. He e-mails me everyday without fail to say how much he loves me. He gets online everyday just to speak to me, without fail and thats the truth coz I've got proof. I have all his e-mails stored in my Blackberry and you can see that the dates were consistent. And that is why I love him so much and not A anymore!! Thats the past!! And here's to my future with Brown and Chary. I miss him so much already though we spoke a while ago. He's on a flight to Rome now, to visit his mother and to sign some papers. Then he's off to KL again to be with me. Its just another week alone and my husband is here...Pfftt!!