Saturday, January 29, 2011

What's Wrong with Peeps Nowadays!!

I woke up this morning, got online to read the news and guess what I saw :

US mother kills teen son and daughter (Updated)

TAMPA, Florida (AP): The wife of a military officer shot and killed her son on the way to soccer practice, then drove to their upscale home and shot her daughter in the head while she studied at her computer, police said Friday. Afterward, the woman told detectives she killed the teens for being "mouthy." Julie Powers Schenecker admitted the slayings after officers found her covered in blood on the back porch of her home Friday morning, police spokeswoman Laura McElroy said. Schenecker's mother had called police from Texas because she was unable to reach the 50-year-old woman, whom she said was depressed and had been complaining about her children. Schenecker's husband, Parker Schenecker, is an Army colonel stationed at the headquarters of U.S. Central Command at MacDill Air Force Base in Tampa. The father had been away for several days when the killings happened, said CentCom spokesman Lt. Col. Michael Lawhorn, describing him as a career Army intelligence officer. Police said Parker Schenecker was in Qatar and was told of his children's deaths on Friday. Julie Schenecker left a note detailing her plans to kill her disrespectful children and then herself, saying "they talked back and were mouthy and that she was going to take care of it," McElroy said. She provided the same motive to police who interviewed her. "I think we will never understand how or why a mother could take the lives of her children," McElroy said. "That was the only reason she provided to our detectives." The body of Schenecker's daughter, Calyx Powers Schenecker, 16, was found in an upstairs bedroom, McElroy said. The body of her son, Powers Beau Schenecker, 13, was found in an SUV in the garage. An arrest affidavit said Schenecker shot her son twice in the head "for talking back" while driving him to soccer practice Thursday night. She drove home, went inside and shot her daughter in the back of head while the teen sat at a computer doing homework, then shot her in the face, the affidavit said. McElroy said investigators believe the teens "never saw it coming." Both were killed with a .38-caliber pistol. Julie Schenecker was jailed and charged with two counts of first-degree murder. Wearing a white jumpsuit, she was led into a county jail later Friday visibly shaking and being supported by a sheriff's deputy. Her Facebook page says she earned a bachelor's degree in physical education from the University of Northern Iowa. Sylvia Carroll, who attended Muscatine High School in Iowa with Julie Schenecker, said she was a popular and athletic girl who starred in basketball in the late 1970s. They reconnected about a year ago on Facebook. "I'm just in shock," said Carroll, who now lives in Austin, Texas. "I can't believe this." The family's home is on a cul-de-sac in a gated country club community in north Tampa.

And I was like, you've got to be kidding me right? A mother, who is supposed to care and love for their children...speechless, simply speechless. I mean, as a kid, aren't we supposed to look up to our parents or least they are the only ones we can trusts because they are family? And to me, its pretty normal for teens to be 'mouthy', don't you think? You know,our parents are from their own generation and we are the present generation, which is way more open and advance, and definitely there will be conflicts at times. But still..sigh, speechless, just speechless. But somehow, it does remind me of my mother, back in secondary school. I was like any other growing up teen, naughty as ever...stubborn!! And sometimes when I get 'mouthy', my mother just walks over gracefully and gives me a tight SLAP...Hahahahaha...and then I would run to granny and cry. But after a day or two, well, things go back to how its supposed to be. She's still my mother. And I'm still her daughter. No hard feelings but perhaps, that's just the way she deals with me and her way of bringing me up. So, when I reflect back to those moments, I think a SLAP is much better than a bullet through my brains...

Although I haven't been a mother myself, but I will look forward to being one some day, hopefully with the man that I will spend my entire life with loving, err...its a bit exaggerated huh. But even then, I will never ever raise my hands on them. Most people who are already mothers may tell me, "its easier said than done" but hey, trust me and you can throw me a challenge, I will definitely never ever hit my children. Ask people around me, my friends, my parents, my cousins, I'm a very gentle person when it comes to kids, even if the kid is annoying..Hehehehe..but no matter how annoying they are, they are still young innocent kids and they are just doing it to catch their parent's attention, right? I'm sure I've done that when I was a kid...haven't you? Ask yourself...(and don't lie..)

And besides, it takes a lot to become a mother. The 9 month pregnancy think its easy? The sickness and the pain...but at the end of the day, when the child is born, its all worth it! That is why I don't understand how that lady can have the heart to kill both her children....just don't understand and still speechless by her actions.

My oh my..people nowadays are getting weirder and crazier......

Friday, January 28, 2011

50 Facts You Didn't Know About Me But Now You Do

Here are 50 facts that you may not know about me but perhaps you should know now. And trust me, even my best friend doesn't know them...

1) My first English name given by my mum was Shereen.
2) I have a pet cat named Coco when I was 10 but my dad took it away because I was naughty.
3) I reached puberty at the age of 14. (oops...)
4) My first boyfriend was at the age of 16.
5) I first drove my mum's car at the age of 15, illegally la of course.
6) I knocked my dad's Volvo onto a tree while reversing but thank god nothing happened.
7) I sneaked out to a friend's party at the age of 12 (a little devil...)
8) I had a crush on a guy from the same school bus at the age of 12. His name was Andrew.
9) I faked a stomach ache once to get my mum send me to school.
10) I skipped school once just to hangout at Mc Donalds.
11) I rode a bike at the age of 13 and met with an accident. (i was hospitalized for a week..)
12) I skipped my tuition class just to hang out at Midlands with my boyfriend.
13) I skipped my add maths tuition and went shopping once (my dad caught me actually..)
14) My first car was a Proton Wira (PEA 981) and its in Penang now.
15) I was born in Kangar, Perlis.
16) I was adopted by this current family in Penang soon after birth.
17) I was born with a heart condition (probably the reason for adoption)
18) My second car was a Naza Citra (WMV 8839) but I sold it when I bought the BLM.
19) My first job was as a waitress in Big O's Deli @ Island Plaza, Penang.
20) I lost my virginity when I was 19 (or was it 18...) to my Sri Lankan boyfriend.
21) I have a second degree in Mass Communication from Monash University in Sunway.
22) I major in Criminal Law, Criminology and Law of Evidence.
23) My favourite subjects in school are English and Accounts. (truly unbelievable)
24) I have a novel coming out soon and its called The Web of Deceit (name given by Iq)
25) My second English name was Crystal (given by yours truly during school days..)
26) I was a Buddhist during my younger days back in Penang.
27) I was baptised by Father Peter in St Francis Xavier Church on 23rd November 2003.
28) My best friend is James. (hah! many of you thought it was Deborah!)
29) My favourite movie is still 'The Devil Wears Prada'.
30) I am the only child in the family.
31) My room walls used to be covered with BSB, 911, Spice Girls posters.
32) I had a crush on my computer class teacher when I was 15.
33) I stole 3 textbooks from ******** during secondary school.
34) My favourite song is 'Forever Begins Tonight' by Patrizio Buanne.
35) My favourite colour is Red ( one knows!)
36) I have co-owned an online store selling car decorations (bet you have no idea..)
37) I only use tampons during menstruation. (never used pads coz its messy..)
38) I always switch off my mobile phones on weekends.
39) I have an AMEX charge card (ahaks!!)
40) Iq bought me my latest BB Curve casing (the pink one and I love it..)
41) I spoke to Dilly of Mix FM yesterday and she was extremely friendly.
42) I've driven to KLIA in 30 minutes from my house in Flora. (like KLIA Express..)
43) I hate RICE. Thank you.
44) I like SAVOURY PASTRIES. Thank you.
45) I've tried committing suicide once but it failed. (terrible lah..damn painful)
46) My first handphone was Startec, when I was in Form 3.
47) I hate messy people and places.
48) I like street food more than restaurant/hotel food.
49) I'm 5ft 9" and I weigh ****** (hahahaha..never in a million years till the day I die)
50) I am a Stephen King fan. (thriller babeh!!)

So, after reading this blog, you think you know me now? Guess what!! You still don't! That's just like 50 interesting (huh?) facts about me...I think I have way more than that...Hahahahahaha

The First of 2011

Well, its 2011 now. New month, new year, new friends, new man, and everything new and there is always a first to everything as well. You know, the first kiss, the first love, the first sex, the first car bla bla bla...and then here comes the first attack of 2011. I thought it would be lesser compared to 2010, when the attacks were so frequent that I really hated being me. I was on constant medication for 3 months, as advised by Dr. Ng and then stopped for a while, and I thought, hey, good news! no more attacks! but here we go again today...

Got up about 6am this morning, my head felt heavy and I felt as though there were like 10000000 needles pricking into my head. Argh!! And then I couldn't feel left hand. And I knew it!! My migraine is back!! Its like Backstreet's Back!! Hahaha...Darn! So, first thing that came to my mind, thankfully, I could still think, was to pop 2 tablets of Synflex, the super strong drug for migraine. And fuh!! I can proudly say I'm doing drugs!! Hahahaha...and thankfully,I still have my final 2 tablets in my bag. And then the next thing that came to my mind was I can't drive! I can work but I can't drive! I wouldn't wanna end up in the hospital like last year, total memory loss and half unconscious. Hehehe...and the worst part was banging my head on my car dashboard as the impact of the accident was soooo great! And then having that b**** calling me and yelling at me for no pretty reason...

Thankfully, my best friend Deborah was around. She was supposed to be headed home to JB today for CNY but she had to delay her trip, just for sweet!! She took me to PMC a.k.a Pantai Medical Centre, my favourite hospital, where I did a scan and a lot more stuff. The bill came up to about RM300. Imagine! Everytime my migraine strikes, its RM300 from the purse. Sigh! Sigh! Sigh!

Its about 3am now and I'm feeling a little better. Had some food and cold shower and my meds but my head is still spinning like crazy. I can't lie down because it gets worst everytime my head hits the pillow. Sheesh!! What a way to spend the weekend, especially when its so near CNY.

Or shall I just sing this classic - "Migraine migraine, go away. Come back again another day. Little Trinity wants to play???" Hahahahahahahah...

Saturday, January 22, 2011

A Song For You...

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I would offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go blind for you
I'd go crawling down the aisle for you
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on a rolling sea
Down the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
But you ain't seen nothing like me yet
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy, make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love

This is a song for that special someone who has a special place in my heart, and it is not Brian! Many of my close friends will know who I'm talking about since I've been sharing quite a bit with them lately. This person plays a different role in my life. He is my friend, or shall I say best friend, my companion, my lover and most importantly, he is my life. And whenever I'm with him, I feel 1000 pounds lighter. It feels as though all my worries just disappear and I feel so relaxed. Around him, I learn to smile and to laugh and throughout our journey, I learn more about myself. Its like a journey of self discovery. No words can describe how I really feel when I'm around him and how it worries me when I'm not. I wish I could be the woman behind him for the rest of his life, loving him and protecting him but can a helpless girl like me do so...or must I just sit and wait........

Sunday, January 16, 2011

The Long Silence

Most of you may have noticed my long break from blogging. Well yeah, I didn't know what to say then. I had too much going on in my head that I can't seem to express myself. But I think I've grown along the process of thinking, matured a little and along the journey, I had discovered my true self, yeah, its scary but its true and the truth may be ugly sometimes but I had dealt with it pretty well I can say. But how do I sum up, hmm..I think I've done a lot and achieved a lot throughout this process of self discovery.

But what can I say, 2010 was a wild year. It was filled with ups and downs, mostly downs and it was a year of losing. I lost my best friend and my dear uncle. It was sad then, very very sad and I actually had an emotional breakdown when I lost James. Maybe because he was such a dear friend to me, the closest guy friend I had, the one I could share all my girly problems with, gossip with and travel with. But eventually, I had to let him go. Its just that I've never thought he would go this way. I mean, I know, some day, he would fall in love, get married and move on with his life. Or at least that was what I had in mind when I say 'to let him go' but well, GOD loved him even more. I hope he's looking down on us right now, me and his daughter. I always tell his daughter that her daddy is the 'brightest and the biggest star in the sky' and she will get so excited that she would look up at the sky in hopes to see her daddy. And being the adult beside her, I would act amazed and get all excited with her but deep down, my heart is aching. I cry in silence when I see that little girl looking so happy, not knowing what had happened to her daddy, waiting anxiously to see him again. Its almost a year now she's been staying with the neighbours, and still I can't bring myself to tell her the truth. Maybe I'm just afraid of her reaction, will she take it well or will she break into pieces? She looked so fragile, so angelic and so innocent...can't imagine how it would be like to break this little angel's heart.

But speaking of 2010, there were ups as well. One of them was to gain a friend back, a friend I've lost for about 2 years due to my stupidity. But thank god he was kind enough to have forgiven me and rekindle this friendship. But I felt like I've lost out quite a lot over the past years and yet, I don't know how I can gain it or to make up for it now. I don't think he has changed a bit at all over the years. He still looked handsome and young and merrier, I guess. And he smell just as good as 4 years ago. My oh my, his aftershave. The smell of a gentleman. Damn it! I think I could just lie down on his arms the whole day and enjoy the aftershave...

So here we are 2011! Its a new year and a new beginning for me! And I really truly hoped that this year will bring some changes in my life and that I can stay happy or at least be my usual self again. And yeah, I'll be blogging from time to time with my life stories.